A house, a heartbreak, and how did I get here? -- Childhood to child bride -- The single years -- Nowhere good -- The Big C -- Mama -- Daddy -- Buying a house in the Hamptons -- A new beau, an old pattern -- Another loss -- Finding the house, losing the marriage -- Seeking a new path -- Detour -- How Bee came to be -- You have to start somewhere -- First steps: from the outside in -- The living room -- The garden room -- Tom Samet to the rescue -- The dining room and library -- The kitchen and butler's pantry -- The master bedroom -- The study and sometimes guest room -- The guest suite -- The pergola -- The garden -- Collections.