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My heart and other black holes
Warga, Jasmine, author.
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First edition.
Publication Information:
New York : Balzer + Bray, an imprint of HarperCollinsPublishers, [2015]
Physical Description:
302 pages ; 22 cm
"Seventeen-year-old Aysel's hobby--planning her own death--take a new path when she meets a boy who has similar plan of his own"--
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A stunning novel about the transformative power of love, perfect for fans of 13 Reasons Why by Jay Asher.

Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into nothingness.

There's only one problem: she's not sure she has the courage to do it alone. But once she discovers a website with a section called Suicide Partners, Aysel's convinced she's found her solution--Roman, a teenage boy who's haunted by a family tragedy, is looking for a partner.

Even though Aysel and Roman have nothing in common, they slowly start to fill in each other's broken lives. But as their suicide pact becomes more concrete, Aysel begins to question whether she really wants to go through with it. Ultimately, she must choose between wanting to die or trying to convince Roman to live so they can discover the potential of their energy together.

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Booklist Review

*Starred Review* Fearful for her sanity and grieved by her father's crimes, 16-year-old physics nerd Aysel has decided the only way to combat the black slug inside her that eats any possible happiness is to kill herself. But she doesn't trust herself to do it, so she uses a website to find a suicide partner who will make the journey with her. She hasn't counted, however, on that partner being good-looking Roman, who battles guilt over his sister's death. He insists that Aysel must not be a flake, that they must carry through no matter what. Ironically, spending time planning their deaths with Roman makes Aysel change her mind. But Roman has fewer misgivings and more anguish, and Aysel must decide if she wants to honor his wishes. Warga's immensely readable first novel somehow accomplishes the impossible she addresses a vital topic without being preachy, creating characters that are lovable in spite of significant flaws. At times poignant, bitter, and funny, this narrative captures Aysel's unique voice that questions what it means to die and to live.--Moore, Melissa Copyright 2015 Booklist

Publisher's Weekly Review

Debut novelist Warga addresses adolescent depression and suicide with honesty and grace in this story of a scientific-minded Turkish-American 16-year-old who is preparing to end her life. Those in Langston, Ky., who don't know Aysel Seran have likely heard of her father, who "slashed the Olympic dreams of the whole town" by murdering its most talented young athlete. Since her father's incarceration, Aysel has been terrified that she inherited the gene that will make her a violent "monster" like him. Death seems like her only escape, but she doesn't want to die alone. Thus she makes a suicide pact with Roman, a teen she finds on a website for those considering suicide. When they meet, Roman's good looks and compassion are unexpected distractions; the more Aysel comes to understand Roman's talents, desires, and regrets, the less certain she is that they are making the right decision. Through an eloquent first-person narrative, Warga crystallizes the significant turning points in Aysel's attitudes and emotions, and celebrates the sparks of hope combatting the dark thoughts that threaten to destroy her. Ages 14-up. Agent: Brenda Bowen, Sanford J. Greenburger Associates. (Feb.) © Copyright PWxyz, LLC. All rights reserved.

School Library Journal Review

Gr 9 Up-Aysel Seran suffers from severe depression and is haunted by and ostracized on account of an act of violence that her father committed three years ago. She and the "black slug" inside her are convinced that suicide is her best and most sensible option. Although she doesn't interact much with other people, concern about her latent self-preservation instincts leads her to partner up with Roman, another suicidal teen from the next town over. As they plan their suicide pact, however, her doubts begin to increase. Warga's debut, written (according to the author's note) after the loss of a close friend, often feels heavy-handed, especially when using physics (Aysel's a nerd and Warga has worked as a science teacher) as an emotional metaphor. Overall, the book addresses serious issues with complexity and humor, and allows the overlapping situational and chemical causes of the characters' depression and isolation to coexist in a very real and murky way. Aysel is a tough but likable character, at once jaded and appealingly naive. She's also Turkish, a daughter of immigrants in a largely white, small Kentucky town, a circumstance that the author presents without making it the focus of the narrative. The other characters are less developed, even Roman, who falls a little flat, but all are thoughtfully presented. A list of suicide and depression resources are appended.-Katya Schapiro, Brooklyn Public Library (c) Copyright 2014. Library Journals LLC, a wholly owned subsidiary of Media Source, Inc. No redistribution permitted.

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