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The five stages of Andrew Brawley
Hutchinson, Shaun David.
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First Simon Pulse hardcover edition.
Publication Information:
New York : Simon Pulse, 2015.
Physical Description:
297 pages : illustrations ; 22 cm
Convinced he should have died in the accident that killed his parents and sister, sixteen-year-old Drew lives in a hospital, hiding from employees and his past, until Rusty, set on fire for being gay, turns his life around. Includes excerpts from the superhero comic Drew creates.
Reading Level:
HL 700 Lexile.
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Reading Counts RC High School 5.3 18 Quiz: 64259.
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A heartbreaking yet uplifting story of grief about a boy who has lost everything, but finds new hope drawing in the shadows of a hospital. Features a thirty-two-page graphic novel.

Andrew Brawley was supposed to die that night, just like the rest of his family.

Now he lives in the hospital, serving food in the cafeteria, hanging out with the nurses, sleeping in a forgotten supply closet. Drew blends in to near invisibility, hiding from his past, his guilt, and those who are trying to find him. His only solace is in the world of the superhero he's created--Patient F.

Then, one night, Rusty is wheeled into the ER, half his body burned by hateful classmates. Rusty's agony calls out to Drew like a beacon, pulling them both together though all their pain and grief. In Rusty, Drew sees hope, happiness, and a future for both of them. A future outside of the hospital, and away from their pasts.

But to save Rusty, Drew will have to confront Death, and life will have to get worse before it gets better. And by telling the truth about who he really is, Drew risks destroying any chance of a future.

Reviews 3

Booklist Review

Hutchinson's latest is an unflinching look at loss, grief, and recovery. Seventeen-year-old Drew Brawley has been hiding from death for months in the Florida hospital where the rest of his family died. He passes the time working at the cafeteria and making friends with teen patients in the oncology ward. Drew has been working on a graphic novel, a disturbing story called Patient F that hints at the trauma he has been desperately trying to keep buried. The comic, interspersed throughout the text, provides a visual punctuation mark to Drew's guilt and self-loathing. When he begins to fall for Rusty, a hate-crime victim admitted to the hospital after having been set on fire, Drew's resolve to live his life ghosting about the hospital begins to waver. Dark and frequently grim situations are lightened by realistic dialogue and genuineness of feeling. The rapid-fire back-and-forth snark between Drew and his hospital family rings true, and the mystery of Drew's past will keep readers turning the pages. This is a heartbreaking yet ultimately hopeful work from a writer to watch.--Szwarek, Magan Copyright 2014 Booklist

Publisher's Weekly Review

In this haunting tale of grief and recovery, 17-year-old Andrew Brawley lives like a ghost in the sprawling wings of Roanoke General Hospital, working in the cafeteria, visiting patients, and borrowing what he needs to get by. When he's not trying to play matchmaker for his friends Lexi and Trevor-both battling cancer-he's talking to nurses or working on his comic, Patient F, all while avoiding the tragic circumstances that took his family and left him behind. When Rusty, a boy badly burned by homophobic bullies, enters the hospital, Drew finds the courage to reach out, find love, and confront his deep-rooted guilt and confusion. Hutchinson (fml) takes some liberties with Drew's unusual day-to-day circumstances, but spins an engrossing story, with Drew's perceptions lending it an almost surreal, supernatural quality (such as his seeing Death around the hospital and fearing that she's come for him). The narrative is further developed by violent excerpts from Patient F, skillfully drawn by Larsen, through which Drew tries to exorcise his demons. Ages 14-up. Author's agent: Amy Boggs, Donald Maass Literary Agency. (Jan.) © Copyright PWxyz, LLC. All rights reserved.

School Library Journal Review

Gr 10 Up-Narrator Andrew is a 17-year-old survivor of a terrible car accident that killed his parents and younger sister. He blames himself, is consumed by survivor's guilt, and is on the run from his life, hiding out in a half-finished wing of the hospital where they died. One night, Rusty, another boy his age, arrives in the ER, the apparent victim of a hate crime, badly burned over much of his body. Andrew begins visiting him late at night, reading first from his own comic, Patient F, and then from novels lent to him by the cafeteria manager. The boys come to realize a powerful attraction for one another and Andrew begins to open up to love and forgiveness. The portrayal of his new life is intriguing as readers follow the teen as he works in the cafeteria, makes friends with nurses and patients (particularly two cancer-afflicted teens), and visits and debates with the hospital chaplain, managing to flesh out a supportive shadow community in the absence of his family. The budding romance with Rusty is sensitively portrayed. But the tone through much of the novel is suffocatingly dark, the language cliched and florid. Sentiments such as, "hope is a scam" and "suffering is deserved," quickly bog down the narrative. Chapters are interspersed with excerpts from Andrew's comic, which is difficult to follow but even darker than the text and disconcertingly severe. The few sexual references are fairly tame, but repeated violence and dense emotional situations make this title best suited for older teens.-Bob Hassett, Luther Jackson Middle School, Falls Church, VA (c) Copyright 2014. Library Journals LLC, a wholly owned subsidiary of Media Source, Inc. No redistribution permitted.



Five Stages of Andrew Brawley The boy is on fire. EMTs wheel him into Roanoke General's sterile emergency room. He screams and writhes on the gurney as though the fire that burned his skin away burns still, flaring deep within his bones, where the paramedics and doctors and nurses crowding around him, working desperately, will never be able to extinguish it. The boy looks my age, seventeen. His hair, where it isn't singed, is the color of autumn leaves. The kind of leaves I used to rake into piles with my dad and take running jumps into. I can't see the boy's eyes from where I'm hiding, but his voice is a chain. It grates as agony drags it out of his throat. The skin on his legs and part of his chest is charred black. The scent of burning lingers in my nose, and even as bile rises into the back of my throat, I can't help thinking of all the times I barbecued with my family during the summer. Mom would squirrel away extra food in the back of the fridge because Dad always burned the chicken. It's late, and I should be gone, but I can't take my eyes off the boy. I'm a prisoner of his animal howls. There is nowhere in this hospital that I could hide to escape his screams. So I stay. And watch. And listen. A girl runs in, arms windmilling about. Screaming words that I barely hear over the sound of my own heart thudding. ". . . in the pool . . . party . . . he was yelling . . ." The paramedics restrain the girl, and she shrinks. She's a broken mirror. The pieces are just reflected bits of us: our anger, our horror, our fear, borrowed and returned. She can keep mine. I focus on the boy. The biggest concern is protecting his airway. I know that. It's basic stuff. If the boy breathed the fire, it might not matter what his skin looks like. That his screams reach every corner of Roanoke's claustrophobic emergency room is a good thing. When he stops screaming is when I'll worry. The doctors and nurses huddle, discussing their plan of attack, maybe; praying, maybe. Mourning, maybe. The boy needs miracles. The storybook-magic kind. One of the doctors--an octopus of a woman working with all eight arms simultaneously--cuts away the ruined bits of clothing and peels them back like ragged strips of wallpaper. The boy moans. I turn away. I'm not prepared for this. I only came to the ER to say hi to the nurses and see if anyone had blown off a finger while lighting fireworks. Today being the Fourth of July made my chances of seeing a grisly Roman candle accident pretty good. But this is bad. This is so much like that night. The small emergency room can hardly contain all the people crowded in it. The walls are white. The floors are white. The drapes that cordon off the exam rooms are eggshell, except for one space reserved for small children. That curtain is decorated with tiny faded yellow ducks. The nurse's station is a stumbling block perched in the middle of the ER, and all the doctors and nurses are forced to dance around it. The nurses complain, but it's a fixed point in space. Immovable. Like me. My calves ache from crouching, and my shoulders are stiff. I fear that if I move, I'll be seen, and tonight I want to remain invisible. The boy on fire needs me to stay. He needs me to be witness to his pain. It's an odd thought to have, but I'm growing used to the odd thoughts that invade my brain these days. Every day. Like how the ER smells remind me of an Italian grinder. The kind that's smothered in vinegar and mayo and too much oregano. Usually the emergency room is a stew of bleach and blood and whatever rotten odors the patients carry in with them. But not tonight. The boy isn't just burned. He's cooked. I turn back to the scene, hoping that they've finished peeling him. He moves less than before. He cries less. Maybe the doctors gave him something for the pain. Except he and I know that some pain burrows so deep, no narcotic can ever soothe it. It's etched on your bones. It hides in your marrow, like cancer. If the boy survives, this pain is a memory he won't want. I'll remember it for him. Steven startles me from behind. "Drew? What're you doing here?" Steven is twiggy, with a bulbous nose and a hairline that he left in high school, along with the rest of his good looks. "Hey, Steven," I say, playing it nonchalant. I stand up slowly, not taking my eyes off the burning boy, and hide my anxiety behind a lopsided grin. "I was on my way home, and I thought I'd stop by and say hi." "Bad time, kiddo." He's cradling an armful of sterile gauze and looking where I'm looking. The boy screams. Steven flinches. Sometimes I think he's too sensitive to be a nurse. I nod my head absently, letting Steven's words settle into my ears but not really hearing them. I try to reply, but the fire in the boy's screams sucks all the oxygen from the room. Steven glances at the bandages in his hands and says, "I should go." "Me too," I say. "I'm working breakfast tomorrow. See you then?" "Sure." Steven's blue eyes light up at the mention of food. "Tell Arnold not to undercook the eggs. Runny eggs are disgusting." The boy screeches, and Steven goes. He walks apologetically and disappears into the tumor of people surrounding the boy. I stay. The doctors and nurses press bandages to seared skin. After his airway, fighting infection is their next priority. I can't tell how much of the boy's body is burned, but it's enough. Soon they'll wheel him to another part of the hospital. I might never see him again. I don't even know his name. But I have to go. Death will appear soon, as she always does. She might take the boy, she might not, but I can't be around when she comes. She arrived late before and didn't get me. But she won't make the same mistake twice, and I'm not yet ready to leave. No one sees me take off. I navigate the hospital on autopilot. There are doors through which only hospital workers are allowed to pass, but I make my way invisibly. I imagine I can't be seen, and I am not seen. The hospital walls have no memory. They would crumble under the weight of so much suffering. It's better that they forget. On the first floor, far past the surgical ward, is a section of the hospital abandoned in the middle of renovations, left to decay when the economy collapsed and the money ran out. Naked beams and partially erected drywall rot like forgotten bones. Dust and neglect fill the air. No one comes here except me. No one even remembers it exists. I grab the flashlight that I leave by the door. It casts a shallow sphere of illumination. Enough to drive the shadows back, but not enough to banish them completely. Sometimes I try to trick myself, imagining that I'm at my old house in my old bed and that the others are asleep in their bedrooms, dreaming sweetly. But it's an illusion that rarely lasts long. This is home now. I trudge to the farthest corner, to the only room that's even remotely finished. It has four walls and a knobless door that I tape shut. Most nights it feels like a prison. My bed against the far wall is a pile of lumpy, stained sheets that embraces me with all the comfort of a sack full of rocks. My pillow is a laundry bag stuffed with discarded scrubs. I pop in my earbuds and play some music. It's in Spanish, so I don't understand the words, but the lazy, metallic twangs of the guitar are soothing. The sounds of the hospital can reach me even here, and I can't sleep with the gasping and wheezing all around me, with the wraiths that haunt the halls, chattering through the night like a million cicadas. Today was long, and I'm tired. It's barely eight in the evening, but I can't keep my lids from sliding closed. More often it's the reverse, and I stay awake all night, begging for sleep to take me. Exhaustion is a relief. Before I lie back and let reality slip away, I retrieve a small tin from beneath my pillow. It's the color of sun-kissed skin and weighs less than it should. I dig my fingers around the edges and remove the lid. The first thing that hits me is the rich scent of leather. Old leather. Leather that was loved. I open the faded brown wallet and linger over the picture in the plastic window. Then I fold it closed and put it beside me. Scattered at the bottom of the tin are two gold rings, one toy horse, and a gold cross. I don't touch those. I replace the lid and settle against my makeshift pillow, clutching the wallet and gazing at the picture until I fall asleep. But my last thoughts aren't of the smiling family in the photograph. They're of the boy on fire. Excerpted from The Five Stages of Andrew Brawley by Shaun David Hutchinson All rights reserved by the original copyright owners. 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