Introduction -- Ricky still loves Lulu -- Isabella -- The sins of the father are visited upon the daughters -- Laying down with the offender -- "To my haunting Ophelia, who brings me to my knees--tie my hands" : on esthetics, art, and spontaneous weeping -- On siblings and sex -- The therapist with child : transference and countertransference ad nauseum -- On finding a voice -- Falling from grace -- Spank me : on sex and the unthinkable -- From field to administration -- Pockets of compassion-- when mine are empty.