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Climbing Jacob's ladder : one man's rediscovery of a Jewish spiritual tradition
Author:
Morinis, E. Alan.
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First edition.
Publication Information:
New York : Broadway Books, [2002]

©2002
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viii, 225 pages ; 22 cm
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English
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ISBN:
9780767906456
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Book

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Jewish by birth, though from a secular family, Alan Morinis took a deep journey into Hinduism and Buddhism as a young man. He received a doctorate for his study of Hindu pilgrimage, learned yoga in India with B. K. S. Iyengar, and attended his first Buddhist meditation course in the Himalayas in 1974. But in 1997, when his film career went off track and he reached for some spiritual oxygen, he felt inspired to explore his Jewish heritage. In his reading he happened upon a Jewish tradition of spiritual practice called Mussar. Gradually he realized he had stumbled on an insightful discipline for self-development, complete with meditative, contemplative, and other well-developed transformative practices designed to penetrate the deepest roots of the inner life. Eventually reaching the limits of what he could learn on his own, he decided to seek out a Mussar teacher. That was not easily achieved, since almost the entire world of the Mussar tradition had been wiped out in the Holocaust. In time, he did find an accomplished master who stood in an unbroken line of transmission of the Mussar tradition, and who lived at the center of a community of Orthodox Jews on Long Island. This book tells the story of Morinis's journey to meet his teacher and what he learned from him, and reveals the central teachings and practices that are the spiritual treasury and legacy of Mussar. Alan Morinis has written this book because the wisdom and practices that helped him so much have not penetrated the world beyond the confines of Orthodox Judaism, and may not be fully appreciated even there at this time. His hope is that Jews and non-Jews alike will find in Mussar a time-tested path of spiritual practice that will help them discover the hidden radiance within.


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Publisher's Weekly Review

This moving account of a secular Jew's search for spirituality begins with his explorations of Eastern religions in India and ends with his quest's eventual culmination in Jewish tradition. Born and raised in Toronto, Morinis won a Rhodes Scholarship and earned a Ph.D. in anthropology at Oxford. After teaching at different universities in Vancouver, he became involved in filmmaking and abandoned academia. He was successful for many years but his business finally failed. During his resulting depression, he turned to Judaism for solace since his investigation of Eastern religions had proven fruitless. He learned about Musar (ethics, morality), a little-known Jewish movement that emphasizes the study of Judaism's ethical writings and their practical application. The need for a teacher to guide him beyond his reading led him to a rabbi in Far Rockaway, N.Y. For the next three years, Morinis traveled frequently between Vancouver and New York. What he learned is incorporated in this well-written book which sets forth the teachings of Musar, often through parables told to Morinis by his teacher. These homilies make a profound connection between belief and behavior. The narrative also reveals the story of the author's life, including the impact of his studies on his relationship with his physician wife and their two daughters. The achievement of personal growth through spirituality is richly demonstrated by this touching account of the author's journey to Judaism. (Mar. 12) (c) Copyright PWxyz, LLC. All rights reserved


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Excerpts

chapter one The Gate of Starting Out In a classic Jewish story, a student tells his friend that he is going to study with a teacher. "What do you hope to learn?" his friend asks him. "I want to see how he ties his shoes," he answers. The streets of New York streamed with people, and the stairs to the subway were like a giant drain sucking up the wash of a human rainstorm. I boarded a train at Penn Station on my way to my first meeting with Rabbi Yechiel Yitzchok Perr at his yeshiva in the unlikely mecca of Far Rockaway, on Long Island. It was a warm day in the early spring of 1999, and I had already traveled a long way. I had spent the night with a friend in Manhattan, having arrived the day before after a five-hour flight from my hometown of Vancouver, British Columbia. I had hugged my girls good-bye when they went off to school in the morning, and my wife had driven me to the airport. Our farewells were subdued. I could feel that my family was happy for me as I finally stepped out on this journey that had been in the making for two years, and yet there was more than a touch of apprehension in the air as well. None of us, including me, really knew where I was going or what I was about to find there. Would I come back as the dad and husband they loved, or different in ways that might drive wedges into our close relationships? It had been an even longer journey emotionally from the brutal moment of awakening I had suffered two years before. Little by little my heart had healed, helped along by the reading and learning I was doing in the classic texts of the Mussar tradition. At first the dense and archaic philosophical language in these centuries-old books had been a barrier to me, but in time I had developed ways to connect myself to their wisdom. When a writer said "men," for example, I would think "people." When he talked about "sin," I would take this to mean ignorant or mistaken actions that led to suffering. In this way, I had read and reread, reinterpreted, and come up with images and metaphors that were meaningful to me while still remaining true to the core of their insights. Although it was the brilliance of these insights that had drawn me deeper into Mussar, I had now come to the point where I needed more than books. The theory was great, but it appeared to me like still-life paintings of a distant land. I needed to see how the wisdom of Mussar translated into the living qualities of someone who walked its path, and I hoped to find that person in Rabbi Perr. On the flight and again on the train, I nervously ran through all the preparations I had made. I knew I was guaranteed to be as much of an "odd duck" in the regimented yeshiva environment as a Canada goose among penguins, but still, I had tried to remember to bring all the special things I knew I would need. I had brought a hat, because men in Orthodox communities wear hats--though I knew theirs would be black and mine was sort of grayish, which made me wonder if, instead of helping me "blend in," it would only point up just how much of an alien I was in their world. I had packed my prayer shawl, my tallis, and borrowed tefillin, the little black leather boxes with thongs that observant men strap on daily, which I had put on a grand total of twice in my life. I expected that the men would all have beards, though I had decided not to grow one myself. Even if they were all bearded, I had told myself, I wasn't on this journey to become one of them, certainly not before I had even set foot among them. I was on my way to deepen my learning of Mussar, and when I remembered that fact, a bright swell of happiness rolled through me. But bang behind it came a wave of hot anxiety, as the reality of what I was doing actually hit home. I'd never even laid eyes on a yeshiva in my life, and now I was on my way to meet the senior rabbi of one on his own turf. As the train rocked me closer to that first meeting, I wondered what Rabbi Perr would be like. I had had only that first cold-call conversation with him and then one other to set the date and time of my visit, so I really had no clues to go on. Would he be warm and friendly or stand-offish and detached? Joyous or austere? Approachable or remote? And I also wondered--and worried--how he would welcome an outsider like me. Would he be the kind of person to judge me on my cleanshaven cheeks and funny hat, or would he focus at a deeper level to see me as just another soul out on God's road? By this time I had already come to see myself as a soul. That's one of the first things any student of Mussar needs to understand and acknowledge, deeply and clearly. Each of us is a soul. Mostly we have been told that we "have" a soul, but that's not the same thing. To have a soul would indicate that we are primarily an ego or a personality that in some way "possesses" a soul. It's an early step on the path of Mussar to unlearn that linguistic misconception and to realize that our essence is the soul and that all aspects of ego and personality flow from that essence. At its core the soul is pure, but habits, tendencies, and imbalances often obscure some of that inner light. The Mussar discipline was devised to help us correct whatever shortcomings may be preventing the light of our soul from shining through. At last the train pulled into the Lawrence station, where I'd been told to get off, and I knew all my questions would be answered soon enough. A short taxi ride through tree-lined suburban streets took me to the squat, red-brick building that housed the yeshiva. For a moment I stood outside and stared at the bunkerlike facade, hoping to make some connection between this ordinary, American-looking place and the ancient world of Mussar I knew from books. As I stood there, all the nervousness and uncertainty I had been feeling suddenly welled up into a tidal wave of anxiety that washed over me and left me feeling drained and totally unprepared for this meeting. In that moment, like a little kid being ushered toward his first day at a new school, I had the overwhelming urge simply to turn and flee. Except, I reminded myself, no one was making me come here. I had made the journey to the bottom of these stairs only because I really wanted to be here, maybe even needed to be. And so, with hat on head and trepidation in hand, I walked up the steps and pushed open the door to find myself in a long, narrow hallway teeming with boys in black yarmulkes rushing, jostling, and yelling at one another. The door labeled office was right there, so I quickly made for refuge and found myself in a tiny room with a woman sitting at a desk. I asked for Rabbi Perr, and she wordlessly nodded over her shoulder toward another short hallway. Students and bearded teachers in ties and dark suits popped in and out of the several offices that opened onto the narrow passage. At the end I came to a door that stood partially ajar and was marked with a plaque that read rosh yeshiva, "head of the yeshiva." My way was blocked by a man leaning through the opening and talking to the person inside. Finally he left, and I poked my head into the small room. Directly across from me sat a man whom I judged to be in his sixties wearing a round-brimmed black hat that tilted backward when he raised his head to look at me. His neck, collar, and the upper half of his shirt were hidden by a thick, wiry graying beard, and as he rose to greet me the tails of his black frock coat fell to the backs of his knees. He presented an imposing, even patriarchal figure, though his eyes, peering out between the brim of his hat and the top of his beard, were large, dark, and warm. I introduced myself and he responded enthusiastically "Welcome!" Slowly he crossed to me. Then, taking my hand in both of his, those soft eyes gazing directly into mine, he asked, "May I give you a kiss?" A kiss! I had thought that, in my anxiety, I'd rehearsed every possible greeting I might conceivably receive from this man, but a kiss hadn't even crossed my mind. I must have given some sign of consent, however, because he cupped my face in his hands and, through the rasp of his beard, I felt his warm lips on my cheek. In that moment, relief coursed through my entire body. He ushered me to a chair, then stuck his head out the door and nabbed a student whom he directed to get me a cup of coffee and a bagel. Settling back into his own chair, he took a deep breath, and said, "So, you are here." Rabbi Perr inquired about my trip, my family, and my well-being before beginning to tell me something about himself and his yeshiva. He'd been born to an Orthodox family in Queens, where his father, also a rabbi, had served a small congregation. Surprising to me, he had attended a secular public kindergarten before starting the training in traditional Jewish learning that had led to his founding this yeshiva in 1969. Describing what he considered his role in guiding the lives of his charges, he quoted Rabbi Israel Salanter, who had started the Mussar movement in Eastern Europe in the nineteenth century: "Teaching children," he said, "is like holding a bird. You have to hold firmly enough that they don't fly away, but not so tightly that you crush them." Hearing that, I relaxed a little more, since I figured the dictum applied to me, too. As we continued to talk, we were interrupted by a faint tapping at the door. A teenage boy warily stuck his head into the office. He was tall, thin, awkward, with short-cropped red hair that resolved into twirling earlocks that were tucked behind his ears. "Come in, Reuven," Rabbi Perr said, motioning him forward with his hand. Silently, the boy approached and timidly handed over what appeared to be a couple of dollar bills. The rabbi thanked him with apparent enthusiasm, looked at the bills for a moment, then handed them back. "Here, you take it. Enjoy it." The boy's face flushed bright enough to raise the temperature in the room by several degrees, then he gingerly took the money, and, mumbling something unintelligible to me, backed out the door. I looked at Rabbi Perr quizzically, and with a small smile on his lips, he explained. "About a year ago, I sent that boy to run an errand for me. He did it, but he forgot to bring me the change. I saw him about a week later and reminded him, but before he could bring me the money, he went off to study in Israel for the rest of the year. He came back just a few days ago, and I ran into him. 'Reuven,' I said, 'how are you, and how was Israel? And what about my change?' So now he's given it to me, and I've made my point. Of course, I had to give him back the money to show him it wasn't really the two dollars I was interested in. Two dollars, two hundred dollars, two thousand dollars, the teaching is about character, not quantity." Here it was, my first experience of Mussar in action. The rabbi's point to the boy was that even the most mundane and trivial detail can help us to make critical distinctions--between this and that, mine and yours, right and wrong. This kind of training and practice for spiritual perfection is at the core of Mussar, which is all about increasing the purity of our actions, one baby step at a time, because paying attention and acting well in small ways is how we move ourselves higher and higher toward our potential, and also prepare for life's bigger tests. As I was still reflecting on this living lesson in Mussar, Rabbi Perr pulled me back with a question. "You know the story of Abraham's sacrifice of his son Isaac?" he asked. When I indicated that I did, he went on. "I've been thinking about that story lately. After Abraham has Isaac up on the altar, he is told by the angel not to bring the knife to the boy. What's going through his mind at that moment? He was told to sacrifice Isaac, but now he has to wonder, 'If I'm not here to sacrifice my son after all, then what am I here for?' " He paused, his sparkling eyes fixed on mine, before probing deeper. "That's the question, isn't it? 'What am I here for?' " Silently, he let me recall Abraham, who had thought he was doing God's bidding until he was told not to go ahead. At that point, he had to wonder, "What does God really want from me?" Rabbi Perr was using this well-known Biblical story to introduce a new perspective on the similar question I'd been asking myself for the last two years. If my purpose was not to succeed in worldly ways and gratify my own ego, then just exactly what was I here in life to do? Though we had just begun to talk, and so at this point he really knew nothing about me or my personal history, it wasn't psychic powers that led him to score this direct hit on the very issue that had brought me to him. What I was asking of life and why I had come to him were all familiar territory, because my ailments were not just my own; they were maladies of the modern age, and he had seen them time and time again. But what did he have to say to this? "Technology," he continued, "has provided us with an easier life than humanity has ever known. Now we have the opportunity and the privilege to step back, as Abraham did, and ask, 'What am I here for?' because there comes a point when the accumulation of more 'things' does not satisfy us." Not material goods but spiritual goods, that's what we're here for. He was about to go on when the phone rang and we were interrupted again, giving me a few minutes to think about what he had just said, and how true it was for me. Excerpted from Climbing Jacob's Ladder: One Man's Rediscovery of a Jewish Spiritual Tradition by E. Alan Morinis All rights reserved by the original copyright owners. Excerpts are provided for display purposes only and may not be reproduced, reprinted or distributed without the written permission of the publisher.

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