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Me and my shadow : learning to live with multiple sclerosis
Mackie, Carole, 1967-
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London : Aurum, 1999.
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248 pages, 8 unnumbered pages of plates : illustrations ; 22 cm
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RC377 .M33 1999 Adult Non-Fiction Non-Fiction Area

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Published to coincide with MS Awareness Week, April 18-25 1999, this book recounts the story of Carole Mackie. Diagnosed as having multiple sclerosis at the age of 23, Carole has since gone on to become a leading figure in the fight against MS.'

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Publisher's Weekly Review

As a 22-year-old flight attendant for British Airways, Mackie got her dream assignment: a flight and 10 days in Rio. But after a day of sunbathing on Copacabana Beach, a disquieting numbness crept through her body; after a collapse, she ended up in a Rio hospital, becoming more debilitated by the hour and, unable to speak Portuguese, utterly terrified. Three months and many painful tests later, she received her grim diagnosis: multiple sclerosis (MS), a degenerative disease of the brain and central nervous system. In this down-to-earth memoir, she details her struggle to come to terms with MS, regain control over her life and raise consciousness about an incurable and severely disabling disease that afflicts millions. In this somewhat overwritten account, she comes across as a highly engaging yet very ordinary girl next-door. Brutally frank about the toll MS takes and her feelings of isolation, Mackie gives vent to her anger, frustration and her need to heal. She loses her live-in boyfriend of four years (though some readers may find him an insensitive lout she's well rid of); copes with the constant stress of informing family, friends and co-workers about her disease; battles to keep her job and stay solvent; and faces a series of painful and frightening relapses as well as the knowledge that more will come. Though "grieving the loss of her health," Mackie investigates alternative treatments, becomes a spokesperson for the disease and organizes fund-raising benefits. Her memoir is a good introduction to the subject for the newly diagnosed, their families and friends. (June) (c) Copyright PWxyz, LLC. All rights reserved

Library Journal Review

Mackie was in her early twenties and a flight attendant with British Airways when she was stricken with multiple sclerosis (MS). In most respects her book is just another story of a young woman's symptoms, terror, diagnosis, combined relief and fear ("What a relief, I last this thing has a name and I can start dealing with it"), and valiant attempt to live a "normal" life with the limitations of MS. Where it differs from other titles is in the chapter "The Employer's Story." With any chronic illness, an employer must consider the ill person's ability and need to stay employed, co-workers' needs to be treated fairly, and the employer's need to get the work done. This chapter takes a close look at this "balancing act" from the point of view of Mackie's supervisor. Titles such as Barbara D. Webster's All of a Piece (Johns Hopkins, 1989) and Moira Griffin's Going the Distance (Dutton, 1989) fill the need for information and inspiration, but Mackie's book goes beyond because it deals with the employment topic directly. Recommended for all general audiences.√ĄMary J. Nickum, Bozeman, MT (c) Copyright 2010. Library Journals LLC, a wholly owned subsidiary of Media Source, Inc. No redistribution permitted.